Fais de moi ce que tu veux

Last night I watched the speeches the ASUPS candidates gave. I felt like I could have given better answers than their standard "We exist to represent the students" bullshit. Nobody who hasn't been in AS knows how much drama goes on behind the scenes.

Went to the Oppenheimer Glass Cafe today to hang out while it rained. It held the thin bits of light inside somehow and was wonderfully calming.

In the daylight anywhere feels like home

Live classical music in a local sandwich shop...

...and chasing the sun. Day well spent.

And there is comfort in the sound

I hung out with Elliott today.

There's a dumpster behind Half Price Books where they throw out everything they don't think they can sell. We actually found some really cool stuff.

Highly entertaining afternoon/evening, and feeling much more optimistic about the coming week.

Floating Free

While driving home, I decided to watch the sun go down on a whim. It's been a while since I saw a sunset over the water, or a sunset at all really. Even longer since I've intentionally stopped to appreciate it.

Played Scrabble last night for the first time in a very long time, but it was fun =D

It seems I need to relearn how to breathe.

And all the million mistakes

I miss the weight of being whole. Rendered insubstantial, I simply float, drained by a million little things. Oh, but details are exhausting.

Lost in the wide space of an unfamiliar place, even more lost in the ever-expanding labyrinth of my personal house of leaves.

I miss the familiar freeways, which navigate the curves of familiar city limits, racing through my world, with the ocean visible in the West.

Frozen by a thousand little pieces, sharp strings holding me to you, against my will. But you were the last place I truly called home.

I feel it in the pounding of my heart, the hints of your lips, your breath, your smile. Every pump forces my eyes tighter shut against the roaring.

With every little betrayal I break just a little bit more, but I know how easy it is for you to erase the line in the sand.

And him. The thousand crushing questions, hiding behind silent calculations.

And I hang suspended in my tightly woven web of indecision, waiting, always waiting.

And if I’m not worth fighting for, what am I worth?

Resolutions

Continue to not be a slob, and continue to appreciate the duality.

Begin to learn to love the rain, and the calm that follows.

Ignore the dysfunction, and appreciate the odd little things, the bright spots.

Get back into it. To this. Be a part of something again.

My sustained idleness is boring me to death.

I know we're gonna leave this town

Rainy day in Seattle.

Jake in the Sculpture Garden overlooking the Sound.

Seattle Art Museum.

We also had delicious Ramen and Crepes =D I love Seattle.

Live Action Rocky Horror tonight!!

Rougeoyant dans ma chair

This is something I miss

This is Jake, at Shari's, at 3am

This is what hitting a pole looks like.

Just your typical Wednesday night.

Slow the chaos of my heart

Lately I've been a little obsessed with duality. Blame it on Dionysus.

I don't want to fall another moment into your gravity

New things this week.

This is where I spent my week

It was pretty uneventful.

I have a whole mouth full of sweet teeth

A little obsessed.

If I had a super power, it would definitely be teleportation

Just so I could go back here. I miss it so much, every day.

I miss friends.

Especially these ones

The fog makes me feel like I'm floating...

Talking on my phone in my car, in the parking lot of Puget Sound, at two a.m., and this is all I can see.